I attend a mixed church, pastored by my godfather. Today, I pretty much made up my mind to leave. I know, it’s an emotional move because of the frustrations I attended church carrying. But, I’ve also been disheartened and frustrated for a while. I of course still believe in the same God they all do, but I’m just in a place where I’m over churches right now.
People in my religion, and family for that matter, believe that it’s ago to regulate the occurrences taking place in a person’s bedroom but are perfectly okay with remaining silent on matters of injustice, as they largely did today. At one point during service today, it was said that people are frustrated with the happenings of life, weighed down essentially because we aren’t ready to fully embrace the idea that God is our refuge. Of course, I completely disagreed hence the post from FB I posted earlier. At another point, it was said that women who are single are such because they’re too independent. What in the actual fuck?
Some of the things uttered from the mouths of men we respect, admire and often even revere are just downright insensitive. I’ve struggled for years with reconciling my personal beliefs with those held by my religion and am tired of this duality. Can’t I just remain spiritual and not participate in the process?
At this point, I’m at a loss and completely unsure about what to do. I’ve contemplated leaving my church on many occasions, but since being home the past few months, it’s become more of a persistent thought than one that’s fleeting.
I tweeted earlier that I wanted no parts of a religion that regulates the private acts biblically termed as sexual immoralities, abortion, etc. while also trying to silence my activist/feminist/warrior spirit…. And while I believe we could be using our religious beliefs to empower folks to bring about change in this country, we’re using them to silence, weaken, break, oppress and destroy.
A serious crossroad to be facing right?